"Well. Not much I can do about it now, is there?"

There is a hint of bitterness there but he doesn't mind. Why hide it? It's not usually that strong but it's being triggered by stories of magical Libraries that give you an out of your old life and lets you go on magical adventures instead.

"I've always wanted to break into it. Nothing personal, just, you know, as a personal challenge, to see if I could."