Mellowed out from the alcohol Carter's expression softens for a moment.
"What's done is done. I survived. That's what matters."
But the words are hollow, haunted. For so many years John was convinced that Eliot didn't care for him. Now it turns out he did? It didn't change anything, it didn't change what he had done to John but it made things... different.
And Carter doesn't like it.
"I don't want you to save me. I don't want to help you fight your damn demons. You made your bed, you go lie in it... but no, you just had to drag me into this. So you can feel better about yourself, so you can be the good person you want to be. But that's not gonna happen, Eliot. What is gonna happen is that we're both in for a world of pain. I'm gonna suffer because of you and your stupid plan here."
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"What's done is done. I survived. That's what matters."
But the words are hollow, haunted. For so many years John was convinced that Eliot didn't care for him. Now it turns out he did? It didn't change anything, it didn't change what he had done to John but it made things... different.
And Carter doesn't like it.
"I don't want you to save me. I don't want to help you fight your damn demons. You made your bed, you go lie in it... but no, you just had to drag me into this. So you can feel better about yourself, so you can be the good person you want to be. But that's not gonna happen, Eliot. What is gonna happen is that we're both in for a world of pain. I'm gonna suffer because of you and your stupid plan here."